Well I have never blogged before because I never believed in it. I used to write a diary once but for some reason stopped putting my thoughts into words. I can think of a million reasons why I did it but don't want to get into that now.
So that beckons the question why I did decide to restart. Well simply because I wanted to.
Now to the title of this post. I have been wondering for quite some time what is it that I want? I guess we all wonder that at different times in our lives.
Now I am not going to talk about how to figure out what you want or don't want. If I really knew the answer to that I would be a great man but I am not. I just wanted to talk about the fact that how we don't usually know what we really want.
I for a long time thought that I knew what I want in life. Like hell I don't. I am not even sure what I want for lunch. Only after I have had lunch do I realize whether I wanted it or not.
So do I now know what I want and did I have some sort of epiphany? Well the answer is a big NO!!!! I still have no clue what I want..not from life nor even from tomorrow, and this always troubled me and I struggled to find and answer. So have I found it ...obviously NO.
What I have realized over the years though is this.
I don't really need to know what I want. The problem is not that I don't know what I want but it is that I try to be sure of what I want. I guess what I have realized is go for whatever seems right. I am not professing hurtling through life without any clue but to tread the path of life knowing you could be wrong...
I think the sooner one realizes that fact the faster you will enjoy the road...I have changed my mind so many times about so many things that I don't feel the urge to be absolutely sure of my decisions...because I can never be...
Yes there are two paths you can go by,
But in the long run
There's still time to change the road you're on.
These lines from the great song made me think. I think the reason we look so desperately for a guarantee that we are on the right path is not because we want to be sure but because we are scared otherwise.
If one overcomes that fear that you might not like your lunch then you will definitely end up trying a lot more cuisines. Yes you might end up hating some of them. For a guy who goes to the same restaurants and places the same order on the same day of the week.. (No I am not as bad as Sheldon Cooper!!!) it was a sudden hit that its ok if I don't know what I want.... No one really does ..people convince themselves they do because the contrary is scary....
I think I am not scared anymore. I am getting more and more comfortable with the fact that I might not end up liking what I am working for or towards... this somehow is a liberating feeling...I can now focus more on getting what I want rather than wondering whether it is a good idea in the first place...
Well I guess I am not as scared anymore...
So that beckons the question why I did decide to restart. Well simply because I wanted to.
Now to the title of this post. I have been wondering for quite some time what is it that I want? I guess we all wonder that at different times in our lives.
Now I am not going to talk about how to figure out what you want or don't want. If I really knew the answer to that I would be a great man but I am not. I just wanted to talk about the fact that how we don't usually know what we really want.
I for a long time thought that I knew what I want in life. Like hell I don't. I am not even sure what I want for lunch. Only after I have had lunch do I realize whether I wanted it or not.
So do I now know what I want and did I have some sort of epiphany? Well the answer is a big NO!!!! I still have no clue what I want..not from life nor even from tomorrow, and this always troubled me and I struggled to find and answer. So have I found it ...obviously NO.
What I have realized over the years though is this.
I don't really need to know what I want. The problem is not that I don't know what I want but it is that I try to be sure of what I want. I guess what I have realized is go for whatever seems right. I am not professing hurtling through life without any clue but to tread the path of life knowing you could be wrong...
I think the sooner one realizes that fact the faster you will enjoy the road...I have changed my mind so many times about so many things that I don't feel the urge to be absolutely sure of my decisions...because I can never be...
Yes there are two paths you can go by,
But in the long run
There's still time to change the road you're on.
These lines from the great song made me think. I think the reason we look so desperately for a guarantee that we are on the right path is not because we want to be sure but because we are scared otherwise.
If one overcomes that fear that you might not like your lunch then you will definitely end up trying a lot more cuisines. Yes you might end up hating some of them. For a guy who goes to the same restaurants and places the same order on the same day of the week.. (No I am not as bad as Sheldon Cooper!!!) it was a sudden hit that its ok if I don't know what I want.... No one really does ..people convince themselves they do because the contrary is scary....
I think I am not scared anymore. I am getting more and more comfortable with the fact that I might not end up liking what I am working for or towards... this somehow is a liberating feeling...I can now focus more on getting what I want rather than wondering whether it is a good idea in the first place...
Well I guess I am not as scared anymore...
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